U-Turn

It is painful to tell the whole truth sometimes, but you can lie to everyone but yourself, so I'm telling the whole truth on this journey to a place I've never been: Healthy. I can't go back there - I've never been there. No crumbs to follow back, just seat of the pants navigation with the help of friends, family, books and a desire to start my 50s with the gift of health to myself. In a little less than five months, I will turn 50. You know the drill-I was going to be svelte by 50. I was going to do a lot. Somehow years of inaction and my first half century is in the rearview mirror. It took a very painful and scary life situation to bring me to this place. I didn't really come voluntarily. I came because I made a promise to God, to the universe, to who or whatever is out there, and now I have to keep it. My partner of 23 years was diagnosed with Hairy Cell Leukemia last June 28th. I made an oath to myself and God that if he let him George live, that I would turn my health around. I mean it. Unlike the other times in my life, this is a promise I intend to keep. I've given my word. My life depends on it. George is in remission and thriving. Time for my part of the bargain.